People just don't get it. I'm sic of ppl thinking i'm weak, because i CHOOSE to be kind, loving, and all those other virtues that bring happiness and peace with in yourself. Truth be told i CAN be a nasty, manipulative, cold hearted, hard mutha-fucker.
But thats SO far from who i want to be.
I have learnt to be caring, compassionate, empathetic & loving. If I can, ANYONE can!
Fuck The Society
I WANNA BE A HIPPIE!
If only you knew me, you would see
I am not at all what i appear to be
They judge me so cruelly in this world of deceit
They have no idea where i've been with these feet
I acted how i had to, with the lifestyle i led
The wrong word or action, i could have been dead
I helped build an empire, with half of it mine
The choice i made was to leave it behind.
I was just a hippie, forced to be hard
Survival of the fittest, has left me so scarred
Physically, emotionally, and spiritually i hid
I had a cold heart, i was never a kid
Hiding from the cold world, that most of you love
A world so corrupt there is more hatred than love
If only you knew me then u would soon see
The hardest, hard cunt has nothing on me
They judge me by appearance, and by the way i speak
Because i show love, and i help the weak
If only you knew me, knew me deep down inside
Then you would see the true person i hide
A person who's kind through good times and bad
A person who'll love you whether your happy or sad
I want to be happy, i want to be free
Free from this demon 'society'
You'll never see, how hard my life was to change
A street kid in luxury, with protection, seems strange
Driving a range rover, a penthouse his home
A criminal world at the end of his phone
People got NO fuckin Clue!!!!!!!!
People just have no clue what i struggle with every fuckin day of my life. Even as someone who has done a lot of soul searching, and has strong moral standards, i'm still tempted into the 'easy life'. I try my hardest to be a good person and stay true to my soul. My calling is to heal. To teach, and to help bring light to the lives of others who may be going through all dat shit like i did.
This shits all about a world i left behind, but having been there and done well, people expect me always to be in tha scene. I live a life dats so far from average. The people i worked for can make dreams come true. But the reality is nothing is for nothing. What seems like a dream can quickly turn into a nightmare. “Blood in, Blood out” as the saying goes. I will always be well looked after, but will always have certain responsibilities.
The reason i left the underworld scene is because i lost SO many fuckin ppl i cared about. Over nothing but jealousy. You never know who you can trust, when moneys involved. I'de rather be a happy, trusting, pauper; than a rich, paranoid gangster. Having said that there IS a happy medium. Nothing illegal, so i can enjoy the rewards of doing well, without the fear of losing it all.